Grunging it up.

Style and fashion are strange things. In many respects they collide, but evidently.....they are completely different. Being a teenager is all about experimenting - finding out who you are, what you like....what you don't like ;) . So, obviously our choices and preferences will change. So now is the time to make mistakes, to trip and fall. But also to get back up...dust yourself off, and keep running head first through life.

I've got a fast car

Maybe we can get away?
Lately I've noticed that things have been going off track. A bit worringly so if I'm honest. My subconscious self seems to be doing...oh my gosh! NORMAL things. This is wrecking havoc. I am so scared, because I feel like the only thing that separates me from everyone else, is my weight. And appearance, but seeing as my self-confidence is at rock bottom, I cannot make myself different by amazing clothes, as I have no confidence to wear them. It's a constant vicious circle. I wish I had someone there, someone to cuddle when things got tough, someone who didn't judge, and just saw me for who I am.

So as of tomorrow - I am going to gain my life back. I'm not going to let my body control my mind. I am in charge. It is my life, so I shall live it as I want. But how much easier said than done! To gather the courage to persist with your endeavours...that is one of the hardest things, to stick things out, whether you wish to continue or not, whether it is simple or a constant struggle, no matter if it seems pointless - you have to trust YOURSELF. For you are the one who has to go day to day living with these choices.

If you had the chance, how would you live your life..would it be different?


Make it your daily goal to live every moment as you wish it to be. For you are the author of your life.

Indeed.

'Fantasy enriches people's lives. Sometimes it is better to show people the way they could be, rather than the way they are.'

99 what a wonderful number

What is a body? Is it something to be loathed or treasured? It seems that the whole body is dissatisfied with something about themselves. Why is this? Is it human nature for us to constantly strive for perfection? How is it one moment we can be on top of the world - or at least content with our lives, and perhaps by some miracle..ourselves. And then BOOM one. Word, or the next second we can spiral into despair, with all hope snatched from beneath our very feet. Perhaps not everyone feels this...or at least not so harshly. It truly baffles me. The human mind is such a strange being. Completely seperate from our bodies, is it US who thinks these thoughts...or. Our minds..on a completely different level? Haha - clearly I think to much. Je suis desolee for the analytical post :p

A demain

Connie

While I have the time...

Oh dear! How addictive this blogging malarky is! So while I still have the time...I shall keep typing...tip tap tip tap. I have been thinking for a while now - about getting a tattoo. For the small minority that may encounter this blog...I hear your outcries! But hold your tongue children. I am not thinking of immersing myself with multiple inky needles..OHH NOOO, this is why I am still undecided. Amongst many things in my life...I am in an undecided predicament. I was thinking about a quote on my wrist yet seeing as I am underage for a tattoo, and it would be clearly visible to my 'rents...who will most certainly not appreciate the nouveau body art, I reconsidered.

So, I am still tattooless. :( However, when I was looking through many, many, maaaaaannyyy quotes, I came across this one, I wouldn't have it scrawled on my skin, but when I saw it, a knowing smile spread across my chin, as the clogs started working in me old 'noggin. And I just thought...'how utterly true'.

"ACCIDENTS WILL HAPPEN (EVEN IN THE BEST REGULATED FAMILIES)"

It made me think of being ill. Or rather getting ill - it sounds like I caught the flu or something! But, it got me thinking, how things, life really, is just so unpredictable. So called 'professionals' can label us, with terms, saying that we 'tick the right boxes' or say that all the effecters were there, or maybe they weren't. but it really is chance. Life is chance, YOU are the one who makes the decisions. People OF COURSE can influence you...but it really is YOU who 'have the power'!

What happened to you girl...did you slip off the edge

I am one of those people, who canNOT go a DAY without listening to some music. It is an ESSENTIAL part of my life. No. Life - anyones. PEROID. I am torn on this blog...should I bore people with my every-day-to-day life (not vair interesting) or should I do it about my thoughts? Or god forbid...my style! haha, well I am STILL undecided. So people if you DO have any ideas, I am MOST happy to accept them! I am sure that, it will lend itself more towards general life, fashion and I guess most definitely photography.

Speaking of music, I was routing around my 'rents music last night...and OMG! Was I suprised! They don't have half bad (emphasise on the HALF) taste! There was a collection on Van Morrison, the Rolling Stones, Eva Cassidy, DAMIEN RICE!! (my new love!) and someone who I had never heard of...Kathryn Williams. I really love her stuff. It's classified as folk...but really, it's not old men singing with beer and harmonicas...I highly recommend her songs BREATHE and THREE. So check her out on youtube. The best 5 minutes you could spend :)

LE PREMIER FOIS

So this is my first post - clearly. I wanted to say hi. At the moment I am redoing my room...well to an extent. I am changing my bed around: this seems to be a regular occurance, every couple of months. But..concerning beds - I like a constant change, or rather I never seem to be satisfied! Ah well.

I shall try and post some pictures of it a bit later.

Adios,
connie

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